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Hola Final Semester!

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Guys I'm finally in final semester!!!

It's not easy to be at this level I told ya. Had to go through all sorts of hardship which makes me who I am today.
Now struggling for my final year project. I keep my finger cross not to flunk in this final semester, its a big NO.
I have went through so many things, wanna share my stories but never mind, I better keep it to myself lah hahah.
U better do it well, I mean really well! Godspeed.

And.....

Something big is coming real sooooon.

I'm counting days now since I've grabbed 2 seats during Free Seats Air Asia (thanks AA, u just made my dream become reality even tho its not the time yet) to.............

*drumrolls*

Somewhere that I've always wanted to be there cuz its on my bucketlist!!!
Kalau dah tekad nak pergi, memang kena pergi.
My passport literally hungers for another stamp of another country. 
This alter ego of mine always dying for another adventure, thus I challenge myself!
Sadly, the crackheads (read: my 3 awesome …

Broken

Have u ever felt u r the loneliest person in the world?
I can feel some of my close buddies are slowly ditching me, which makes me feel unwanted at certain time. It saddens my heart.
Mungkin sbb selama ni dia tempat aku mengadu segala hal.
I guess this is the time for me to deal with reality, where people spend most of their time with their soulmate, just to be in the path and dream they want to work it on, while me...
I only have my family. That's it. I have to be clear that different people have different journey.
Most of my friends already have their own so-called life partner. Sebab tu kot aku rasa aku ni 'sorang2'. Aku rasa aku dah tak diperlukan sebab masing2 dah berpunya.
Hanya diperlukan bila ada masalah je.
I am a loyal person. I value my friendship with mutual trust to each other and never cross my mind to break them apart.
But I can sense the distant friendship that not used to be that good anymore. I don't wanna waste my time for some people that would make…

Life update

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*ambik bulu ayam, tiup habuk*
Ye, blog ni berhabuk sungguh. I ditched this space of mine because my life forced me to do so.
Sekarang ni aku tengah final exam. Tinggal satu paper lagi je, Philosophy of Management. Habis je paper Sensory Evaluation, aku rasa macam nak tidur untuk beberapa hari. Please wake me up on 20th May. Because I got last paper on that day and I'm now counting days to be back home. Padahal study week baru je balik sebab sambut puasa dengan family. Semester 6 ni paling banyak balik rumah kot haha. Dalam tempoh 4 tahun, ni first time rasanya dapat sambut 1st Ramadan dekat rumah. Wallahi that feeling :')

I honestly cannot wait to be at home again. Sebabnya, banyak sangat benda kena tempuh masa minggu2 terakhir sebelum habis semester. I am now currently working on my ongoing Final Year Project until December 2017. First time tak tidur 2 hari siapkan proposal writing utk fyp aku. Stress buat FYP, pasang lagu raya walaupun masa tu puasa belum start lagi. Exagger…

#111

"Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done! Now if you know what you're worth then go out and get what you're worth. But ya gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody! Cowards do that and that ain't you! You're better than that! I'm always gonna love you no matter what. No matter what happens. You're my son and you're my blood. You're the best thing in my life. But until you start believing in yourself, ya ain't gonna have a lif…

Self-reflection

Waktu paling tenang bagi aku, selepas maghrib baca al-Mathurat dengan al-Waqiah dan sambung surah dalam al-Quran sebab nak khatam lagi. Selagi hidup ni, khatam lah banyak mana pun, pahala pun banyak alang2 tu baca tafsir sekali biar faham.
Dulu aku jarang baca al-Mathurat, selalunya lepas solat terus baca al-Quran. Kalau al-Mathurat tu biasanya aku dah lancar, so most of the time aku akan baca tafsir dalam hati.
Wallahi, the feeling in between of that time, I feel like I am so small. Subhanallah wal hamdulillah wala ila haillallah wallahu akbar Subhanallah… subhanallah… subhanallah
Tak semena-mena air mata ni mengalir.
Kalau baca surah ar-Rahman, 31 kali ulang “Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah engkau dustakan?” Weh, sekali lagi rasa kecik sangat.
Tipulah aku sebagai manusia biasa, tak pernah merungut dengan apa yang aku ada. Kenapa orang lain boleh macam tu? Kenapa orang lain dapat? Kenapa aku tak boleh jadi macam tu? Kenapa aku tak dapat?
Kebanyakan orang akan define rasa ke…

Mimpi

I should let myself cry out at the top of my lungs, well at least here, literally.
It has been few times the same person come into my dream, 
I am that kind of person who don't simply believe on facebook quote "jika mimpikan seseorang bermakna dia sedang merinduimu" whadehek yall facebook people are so funny isn't it???
But what if its really true.... Hmm Macam mana kalau dia memang betul2 tengah berdoa, and his prayers all pointing out to me? Hmm
Sometimes, I will wake up from my deep sleep with tears after I got the dream. I feel like it's torturing my mind. Can't seem to have my breath properly. Quite confusing and I'll be like "alah mimpi je pun" Tapi dah banyak kali pulak ni, and it comes in 'seasonal', tak tahu la nak rasa apa. I'll immediately having flashbacks moments happen right in front of my eyes.  The first day we talked to each other because of our group work. The first day we took photo together. The time that we cheri…